不走的烟熏

现在早上6：25，刚看完一场足球赛事后难以入眠。我看应该不会有人再来这里了，有些事，我真的搞砸了。圣诞前夕我只想一个人过，没什么特别的理由。我一直在担心，担心些什么我也不清楚。也许我就是那么没有主见，什么事都轮不到我做主。

at Christmas's eve, after rejected all the invitations from my friend for those silly countdown i found out that 3 of my pet sister stayed at home rather than going somewhere else for countdown.

i felt curious for sure and ask them why.

YAN told me that she's sad, maybe she just broke up with her bf or she's just sad of no one invite her for a countdown. i didn't ask further more. HOPE SHE'S HAPPY

XUAN told me that she doesn't want to go out to countdown so i think maybe she's just tired or whatever. she's a hyperactive girl, would never stayed at home whenever special dates or event took place. HOPE SHE'S HAPPY

YAP told me that she want to stay with her sister,i dont know whether it is real or she's just lying to me for trying to reject my invitation. by the way HOPE SHE'S HAPPY too

原谅我就是这样的男生。哥，爱你们^^
我对任何的倒数都开始感到恐惧了。
也许在新的一年，会更好。只是也许
太阳要出来了，是时候说再见了。