叶子的坚持

所谓爱，就是当感觉、热情和浪漫拿掉之后，你仍然珍惜对方。
我刚刚得到消息，蜗牛跟她男友分了，将近两年的感情已告一段落。很想安慰她但不知道用什么方式。已经是那么多年的老友了，我还没有办法给她安慰，真失败。
“勇气不是天生的，是靠自己一点一点累积下来的。”这句话如果没有错应该是从（败犬女王）的偶像剧中学到的吧。觉得很有意思。

OK, back to the business. when i think of you i think of one word,"impossible". because every path that leads me to you is way to hard for such a lazy guy like me. no matter how hard i try to convince myself that the target can be easily approach but somehow reality will fight back and disqualify all my imagination. i don't know by now did choon lai or chi ling tell you the truth that i love you, but if you really realized that i love you, i do mean it!!

i scared of failure, that's the biggest disappointment of myself. i kept all the thing deep inside my heart because i hate the feeling being abandoned and betrayed.

i know maybe in your eyes i am a cool guy and don't like to take things seriously but I'm different from the inside, i swear.

到了这个地步，还能怎样？
见步行步咯^^

老板。买单

一年又要过去了，这里来个小小的总结。自从中学毕业后，所有生活的节奏都放慢了。先说学业，上课时间不定时，有时候突然更改时间表，有些已经计划好的事情都没有办法顺利进行。再说运动，就因为上课的时间是不定时的，所以我打球的时间就大幅度降低。一个星期才一天，甚至一个月才有一天可以尽情地挥洒汗水。也就因为这样，我的体重逐渐增加。

i think 2010 is the worst year in my life because i cant achieve whatever i've done. i kept planning, and planning, and planning for all my daily life activities but end up without following any of my plan.

and i hate my self for one thing, sensitiveness. i hate it because i know what is happening on me and around me. i can briefly understands what is happening to my friends. i hope that i dont even know these.

by the way, hope all the people around me feel happy.^^

在新的一年里，希望凡事都顺顺利利^^

im a big fat guy now...not as slim as before^^

不走的烟熏

现在早上6：25，刚看完一场足球赛事后难以入眠。我看应该不会有人再来这里了，有些事，我真的搞砸了。圣诞前夕我只想一个人过，没什么特别的理由。我一直在担心，担心些什么我也不清楚。也许我就是那么没有主见，什么事都轮不到我做主。

at Christmas's eve, after rejected all the invitations from my friend for those silly countdown i found out that 3 of my pet sister stayed at home rather than going somewhere else for countdown.

i felt curious for sure and ask them why.

YAN told me that she's sad, maybe she just broke up with her bf or she's just sad of no one invite her for a countdown. i didn't ask further more. HOPE SHE'S HAPPY

XUAN told me that she doesn't want to go out to countdown so i think maybe she's just tired or whatever. she's a hyperactive girl, would never stayed at home whenever special dates or event took place. HOPE SHE'S HAPPY

YAP told me that she want to stay with her sister,i dont know whether it is real or she's just lying to me for trying to reject my invitation. by the way HOPE SHE'S HAPPY too

原谅我就是这样的男生。哥，爱你们^^
我对任何的倒数都开始感到恐惧了。
也许在新的一年，会更好。只是也许
太阳要出来了，是时候说再见了。

我最喜欢的冬天

冬天，下着雪。我开心地望着你的脸孔，那时的你没有烦恼，没有忧愁，对！从那天开始我就发觉我已经深深地爱上你了。那时五年前的一个冬季。我记得。
最近，没有什么机会看到你，因为我没有出息，就连跟你读同一间学校的资格都没有。你有你忙，我有我忙。
其实我是很像再见到你的，只是没有勇气约你。怕你忙，怕我是导致你不能专心的导火线。

其实我想知道你是不是已经知道我喜欢你了？

我自问没有资格爱你。
我自问没有办法跟别人比较。
但有一点我无可否认的是，我爱你 ^^